Amidst Confusion

Summer finally kicked in and the weather is getting so hot. It is reminding me of the summers in Kuwait. Speaking of which, I don’t even know when I’ll be going back to Kuwait this summer. I might take summer classes here, but the weather makes me think otherwise. Also, I may have to meet up with my family when they go to France, which might be really soon. I am so excited to go and use all the French I’ve learned this year. I really can’t wait to go there. I also want to go back to Kuwait to see all my friends and relatives though, but that will most likely have to wait till after I go to France.

Amidst all this confusion, there is so much work that I have to do for my classes. Some of the work includes final projects and assignments, studying for final exams, and procrastination. Instead of working, the temptation to go and play tennis or racquetball is too strong for me to resist. Racquetball is another sport I took up. I’ve never heard of it till I came here. It is very similar to squash and tires you out real fast, which makes it a great workout.  It is about just as enjoyable as tennis but not too fun when you hit yourself in the head with the racquet.  Back to the point, I have been procrastinating which forces me to work till late at night. Then, I have to wake up for my 8AM class and I have no time to take naps in the afternoon, so I am exhausted. In fact, I missed two of those early classes this week. I wake up, and like everyone else when they’re tired, turn the alarm off and go back to sleep. The funny thing about it is that I do it subconsciously; when I wake up later I don’t even remember turning the alarm off.

Yesterday was an important day in the world of soccer. There was a match between the best two Spanish clubs, Barcelona and Real Madrid. The only place you can go to watch the match is a Colombian restaurant called Super Perros. It was the first time for me watching a soccer match in Tallahassee and being able to feel the tension in the air created by the passionate supporters of the two teams. There was even extra tension because it was the Final of the Spanish Cup. It was beautiful. The place got rowdy and people were screaming and you don’t see that in Tallahassee. The place has really good food too. It’s too bad I just heard about this place yesterday.  It’s never too late though, I’ll probably go again for the Champions League games.

Ten things I learned from my year in FSU :)

It’s hard to believe that there are only two more weeks left in this semester and only three more till I get back home for summer break… Though at times I find myself feeling nostalgic about leaving FSU for three and a half months and leaving my whole ‘being independent-doing what I want’ part of life, going back home is my priority right now.

The President of FSU, Eric J. Baron, is hosting an ice cream social tomorrow, Thursday April 14th on Landis Green. It is apparently an annual event where students, faculty and staff come together to have free ice cream and cookies. In addition to that a live DJ would be there to provide entertainment along with a Jousting Arena, a Bungee Run and the FSU Flying High Circus.

Once again today I find myself hit with a serious dose of writers block, and therefore instead of writing about mind boggling philosophy or the secrets of the universe, as I usually do… I am going to write about the ten things I have learned during this year at FSU.

1)      Sir Cecil Beaton said, “Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the common place, and the slaves of the ordinary”.

2)      Procrastination and being bad with time is a disability but it is also extremely gratifying.  It feels amazing when you are just sitting around doing nothing, in a way I feel almost rebellious and there is a slight feeling of adrenaline which hits me when I waste time. It’s like Steve Hobbs says, it’s like freedom in a bottle.

3)      Silent movies are amazingly entertaining. It should be remembered that they were the first forms or the beginning of film and at times they are

very sloppy with a tadbit overacting with bad makeup, but they were a brilliant start. Nosferatu, which I saw this weekend, is one of the creepiest characters in movie history (according to me). Nosferatu is in essence Dracula. The makeup was weird and at times comical but his blank stare and his figure gave me a chill. One of the striking shot was a scene in which he rises from his coffin. When he opened it, it was not bats which came out but rats…

4)      People in America love causes…especially if stuff they buy is for a cause for example everyone on my campus is after TOMS shoes. An organization which would donate a pair of shoes to a child in need in third world countries, every time you would buy one of their shoes. So people want to get them more so because they are for a cause… wouldn’t it make more sense just to donate the money that they would use to buy the shoes instead and let the children in those countries have two or more pairs of shoes?

5)      Girls here have the biggest desire to look like Amélie.

6)      Americans know absolutely nothing about Football…yes! Football the actual kicking the ball with the foot game (I hate calling it soccer)…all they know is that… England, Brazil are good.

7)      Americans love world music. I should point out that most of my judgments are based on my observations of my friends and people that I interact with. My roommate, Laura, has a huge collection of artists from all over the place from Beirut to Sigur Ros to the compilations of Fleck, Hussain and Meyer… which is fantastic!

8)      Organic food and items are very much in here. Americans would do anything for organic Food,. However I just weirdly realized now that we are so dependent on agribusiness foods that if the world was to switch to 100% organic food tomorrow, almost half the world would die from starvation.

9)      Paler than White :                                      

from left to right: Chicago (first two), Atlanta, Austin, San Francisco, Brooklyn, Santa Fe, Toronto, Boston, Seattle, and New York.

10)   Ramen is the best investment. Ever. You can cook it in the microwave or over the stove :O

Procrastination…

I was going over my previous posts for inspiration and I realized that through most of them I complained of excess workload. Well I seem to be having the same thing again, but this time due to my incurable laziness. I spent the whole weekend talking to my friends from back home and just lazing around and listening to music. My immense phase of procrastination ended at 5pm on Sunday, when I realized that I had missed an assignment deadline and even the extension deadline :/ not very smart of me…

Even though procrastination is extremely satisfying, I now have two 3000 word research papers due on Thursday along with a journal entry. To add salt to my wounds my Calc 3 professor announced that he had just put a 40 question homework assignment online due for this Friday.

My motto on the weekend was ‘Why do now, what you can do later-or perhaps-never’ and to make myself feel better I actually googled it…

Turns out procrastination is almost a necessity and even though it has a bad reputation it could be the answer of some of life’s complex problems…trust me I became aware of how life really is when I came to college. Some of the best reasons I read were:

1)      Procrastination helps to reduce stress: “Have a deadline looming in a week or so? Why worry about it now and cause yourself  unnecessary stress? ….You are going to worry about it the night before anyway, so wait until then to tackle the project. Look at that – you reduced seven days  of stress down to one night”

2)      It increases your confidence as it is- for all those nerds like me out there- like living on the edge. Doesn’t it make you feel like such a rebel?

3)      Improves health because sleep is good for you. And then having a stress free sleep prolongs your life.

4)      I didn’t realize until yesterday during a presentation about being green in one of my class that I actually save energy and thus the world….because I turn of the lights and my laptop before falling asleep+ almost all my assignments are due online so I conserve by not doing them

By now I am sure that my father might be debating the wisdom in actually sending me to college and spending all that money….

However I do not advocate procrastination…now…that I have all my homework piled up. It always starts by a little procrastination, which doesn’t seem like a big deal, but then it leads to a little more and then a little even more and finally you have a huge period of time you just wasted. In college it hurts with bad grades, in real life it pinches bad especially as one of my friend told me last night that she delayed paying her electricity bills for her apartment and kept putting it off till they finally cut off her supply :/…Imagine a whole night without the electricity.

Procrastination might even hurt the whole dependability factor because it might lead to you letting down a friend and it damages a person’s credibility.

Then, as in my case a whole weekend of, procrastination (however much I try to convince myself that I was justified…) actually leads to a whole week or even more of rushing for things. So there rises an argument of having a day of peace of mind followed by 6 days and nights of rushing Vs taking it gradually and easing it over the whole space time of the week.

An unnamed author/blogger on a website called the experience project wrote a short paragraph about procrastination and said,

“Maybe I procrastinate not because I’m lazy, but because I’m afraid of confronting things that make me uncomfortable or upset.”

I think that she is right.



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